Astonishing

It all went okay. I got some happy sedative that made me unaware of the needle(s) in my eye. And everything else was fine. I have a patch on my eye for a couple more hours. More annoying than anything else. I guess God does care about me. :)

Tomorrow

Tomorrow I'm scheduled for eye surgery; I have to be at the hospital a 7 am. Yay, more needles in the eye. I'm not really looking forward to it. Perhaps if my previous experience hadn't been so horrible, I wouldn't be so stressed about it. I've been trying not to think about it but now it's imminent. What I should really do is take it to God and trust in him. That's not going to get me out of it though. The surgery needs to be done, there's no point putting it off. Miraculous healing would be fantastic. I don't really have much faith for that though. Maybe tomorrow I will be able to blog about how great God was in getting me through it.

Driver's License

About this time every year I get annoyed and rant about renewing my driver's license. Because I'm a type 1 diabetic, I have to get a yearly driver's medical, which typically would cost money unless you combine with some other medical need/concern and renew my license. I've always felt this was unnecessary and discriminatory. Aside from being really annoying and inconvenient, a 1-year license is not 1/5 the cost of a 5-year license. So, I do my thing as usual and THERE'S BEEN A CHANGE! I'm so very excited that my license is good for THREE years now! So, I guess I can't rant as much anymore.

It is finished...

Well, probably not. Just sent off the last of the paperwork for the Canopy to the CRA. As long as they don't request anything else it'll be finished. Here's hoping. Of course, I've got all the financial documents in my house that I have to hold on to for years. I might be feeling a little bitter but only because nobody else cares which makes sense as the Canopy closed 9 months ago. And really it's okay, I don't mind doing it. Maybe what I really want is a little appreciation.

Bah! Enough of that crap. It's kinda funny that the CRA took so long reviewing the letter asking for the charitable status to be revoked that I don't have to prove we disposed of our assets appropriately. If you are really interested in the details of that you can look it up on the CRA website. I hope they don't come asking for more info that would mean I'd have to sift through the pile of papers on the table that has been dubbed the Canopy table.

On the other hand a side benefit of doing the treasurer stuff is I can claim professional development hours with APEGGA for the volunteering my time.

The biggest thing that I hope the CRA doesn't want is taxes from the Canopy...if they do I'll come looking for donations.

Some things

Psalm 13

1. How long, O Lord? Will you forget me forever?
How long will you hide your face from me?

2. How long must I wrestle with my thoughts
and every day have sorrow in my heart?
How long will my enemy triumph over me?

3. Look on me and answer, O Lord my God.
Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death;

4. my enemies will say, "I have overcome him,"
and my foes will rejoice when I fall.

5. But I trust in your unfailing love;
my heart rejoices in your salvation.

6. I will sing to the Lord,
for he has been good to me.

This psalms is kind of where I'm at. Some things have happened this year that don't make sense to me that deal with dreams I've had since I was a kid. The first 4 verses is how I feel towards God about it and yet I am very much in the space of verses 5 and 6. It makes me feel a little confused, almost like there is two of me. (Don't worry, I don't have multiple personalities)

I had a good time praying at HoPE on Friday. I felt really connected with God and now feel spiritually buoyant. How do I get that to carry through the week, while dealing with the feelings that God is hiding from me? Hhmmm...see confused. Oh well, I'll rejoice in the good stuff and do something with the not good stuff. (perhaps, ignore it)

Hmmm

So, it's almost 1 am and I can't sleep. I'm more awake now than I was yesterday. I stayed home from work because I have a very sore throat. It's still sore. I should really go to work tomorrow/today; is that possible if you are sick and haven't slept. Maybe. So what does one do at this hour of night? Play on the computer. It really only holds so much appeal though. What does one blog about when there seems not much to blog about? Apparently, not much 'cause that's all I got.

Toaster Fun

On Monday I bought a new toaster. I got it home and set up only to find that our bread was too large for the toaster. We have breadmaker bread which is larger than store bought bread. This morning, I returned the toaster and picked out another one. Only to find that it to was too small. I made John return the second one, while I went to look as the toasters again. I was smarter this time though; I took a cupboard cutout of our bread. It turns out there was only one toaster on the shelf that our bread would fit in. You will all be happy to know that ever toaster can fit a bagel. Unfortunately, of the toaster that fit our bread there was only the display unit left. Humpf. We could have gone with the four slice toaster of the same model and type but really there is just two of us, why would we need a four slice toaster. We took the display unit and on top of the sale of 25 % off the last ticketed price we got an additional 10% off. I am very happy that we have a new toaster. I hope that it doesn't break down soon; I don't think I could handle having to return a third toaster.