Monday, 26 January 2009


Why did the lady in the waiting room say it doesn't hurt? I had what I hope is my last laser eye surgery today and it hurt like hell. In fact, it was the most painful one yet. I had to ask the doctor to stop and then I burst into tears, which is embarrassing. Almost 400 shots. It hurt right at the beginning too, enough to make me flinch. Apparently, she made some shots right near the nerve. She apologized for causing the pain but was very consolatory, of course that's not what she is like. On the up side, she thinks she got it all. I go back in 6 weeks for a follow-up. I feel a little ill; it could be the pain. I think I'll go lay down for a bit.-

Friday, 16 January 2009

Why II

Why do people talk over me? Am I really that boring, is what I have to say not worthwhile? It really doesn't encourage me to talk any more. Or maybe I really am boring and shouldn't talk anyway. Hmmpf.

Tuesday, 13 January 2009

New Words

I learned some new words yesterday and today, I feel so proud.
lugubrious - sad or gloomy in an exaggerated way
misogynist - one who hates women
prodigious - extraordinary in size, amount, extent...
And I picked up a new word for scrabble: xeric - of, pertaining to, or adapted to a dry environment.

Tuesday, 6 January 2009


When I was in grade three, a new girl came to our class and nobody liked her; at least the girls didn't like her, I'm not sure about the boys. I can't remember why we didn't like her except that we made fun of her because she wrote really small. I still remember her name whereas I have trouble remembering others. She didn't stay very long, she moved again. What is extremely odd to me is that we made her departing gifts. Nobody else that moved away got departing gifts. I think I instigated the giving of the gifts. Why did we give her gifts? Why didn't we like her? And why do I still think about it and it bothers me.

Saturday, 3 January 2009

A new year

I have cried much of late over the closing of the Canopy. Many things remind me of my church home for the last 5 years. It doesn't help any that I don't know where I'm going to church tomorrow nor the great effort that is required for me to meet new people and build new relationships. The finances will slowly get sorted out but it feels like the pain is prolonged in the process. What is annoying is I don't understand why and even if I did I probably wouldn't like the answer. I don't want to hurt anymore.

What will John and I do? We have very different preferred styles. Does style really matter? In a way, yes but perhaps in a bigger way, no. I guess I really want a church that is a community that has a passion for Jesus and compassion for people. Hhmmm...

What a beautiful King

I titled this a new year but I got side tracked...I'll blog later about the new year.